Sunday, February 10, 2013
Cynthia Sheppard - Learning to Love Myself
Learning to love myself.
Sad drawing, happy ending. When I was 20, my boyfriend-at-the-time and I did [things] that made us sleep very little. We told ourselves it was because we needed the time to finish our album, that we were valiantly killing ourselves for what we loved. But doing [things] has side effects- you don't eat, you get paranoid, you get fired from your job for being late and/or crazy. You're sad all the time. I remember the distinct moment that I knew things had to change for real: I got on the bathroom scale and I only weighed 89 lbs.
After that moment, I decided it was most important to learn to love myself. With that in mind, I was able to let go of the idea that two people killing themselves for an idea could make a healthy relationship. I moved on to better things.